Have you ever looked fear in the face and said "I just don't care"?
It's only half past the point of oblivion,
the walk before the run,
the breath before the kiss,
the fear before the flames.
Have you ever felt this way?
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said "I just don't care"?
It's only half past the point of oblivion,
the walk before the run,
the breath before the kiss,
the fear before the flames.
Have you ever felt this way?
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Monday, November 10, 2008 @ 4:01 AM
Girls in codes.
   Ugh I am so jealous and pissy now there's smth wrong with my speakers so I can't watch my ANTM cycle 11 (hello i'm already two episodes back this is not fair I think I might just cry) and my camera cable is misssing so right now when i'm not feeling lazy I cant upload photos so i'll have to make do with halloween's long ago hahah k not really I kinda miss shan and her obsessive habit of bridge now she's gone for don't know how long to disneyland so I hope she has fun over there I still cant get over her "opportunities galore" thing HAHAHA quite retarded omg and I realised my sentences have no fullstops or commas to them ah who cares it's so fun rambling anyways... okay moving on I am vvjealous of something but I cannot say it now cos 'now' just seems so inapproriate and childish..I shall just wish that this feeling will go away soon haha denial denial denial! [why can't I?] oh and I was just thinking over dinner jsut now how I always procrastinate a lot thinking I have a lot of time ahead of me to finish a certain task and yes it's true having lots of time to finish something could be a good thing right?NO cos' I end up not doing it at all or punishing myself with v little time to finish it; I think I might actually like the thrill of having to complete an uphill task with v little time...I AM QUITE A PSYCHO ACTUALLY and no it's not any specific incident that got me thinking on this just the whole chinese As thing sparked off this train of thoughts looking back I feel so bad and guilty cos I think I secretly like chinese a little back in seconday school which was why I did okay but then here in pj I had an entire year to prepare for chinese As + I had extra notes from cassandra right from the start of the yr but I kept putting off reading the notes and getting it right I think I might end up failing my chinese As and I can only blame myself.(AH I just jinxed me again but I deserve it)I don't think my sec.school chinese teacher whom I respect a lot would be proud if she sees me now:X so this goes into my list of new year resolutions, to NOT procrastinate (or at least with the little things)!oh I painted my room pink today and now I can't wait for christmas:) |